The Diva Book

A real life behind the scenes look at the life of the International Superstar Sangindiva...

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Soul Searchin' and Seekin'...




















Yes, it has been a looooong time since I've blogged.
In all honesty I was strongly considering
shutting this blog down.

It's so easy to go back to a life of anonymity...
...of just blog lurking,
...reading with no comment or opinion-
unless I felt like it.

I made it one year-
and my blog evolved,
as my life did-
sometimes in the open...
sometimes in secret.



















Over the past few months I have really been
doing some soul searching and life evaluating.
I've lost a few friends
and left a few friends;
lost myself...
yet gained a new perspective.
I even fell in love...

with myself!

and it has been a wonderful thing.



Through prayer and silence,


I have been seeking God,


seeking life


and seeking happiness...


I've found that and then some-






January
was a month of loss for me,
So I really didn't feel like blogging.

I lost a dear friend and a part of our band...















*RIP* Doug Iten



I lost a tooth :(













(I wonder If I lost some wisdom too?!)


I lost my dang CELL PHONE!!!



















in a cab in Phoenix -
1 hour before my show.
I was crying and sad
because I don't know
my mother's number by heart...

or ANY BODY'S number by heart-

because of that dang cell phone,

that I LOST,
in a cab,
1 hour before my show....

{Insert lots of sobs and tears here}

I even got a comforting hug from
Jazz legend GEORGE BENSON















He said:"You have to smile big for my picture"
Because believe me yall... I was sad.
(look at me looking like a raccoon from crying)

Then ...

I lost my voice
and lost a week of speaking or singing!!!




















(but now it's found-
and I am SUUUPER busy!) YAY!

So now that I am NOT shutting down my blog...
I will update you on all the goods soon!



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Sangindiva~

36 Comments:

  • At 3/10/2007 2:04 PM, Blogger The Wonderfulness Of Dr. Speed said…

    I'm glad you didn't quit.

     
  • At 3/10/2007 2:30 PM, Blogger Butta said…

    Yaaaaay! Glad to see you back on the block. I've been doing my own bit of soul searching and seeking myself so I truly feel you, sis. You're in my prayers.

    And I'm in the process of resurrecting my blog as well. ;)

     
  • At 3/10/2007 8:28 PM, Blogger Shai said…

    I feel ya on the soul searching. It is interesting, hard, and freeing.

     
  • At 3/11/2007 8:52 AM, Anonymous thegod said…

    Awww man! We all struggle. I am delighted that you are not taking down your blog you show us a part of life that most never get to witness.

    Sorry to hear about your friend passing on and the other losses you have encountered but through loss comes gains.

    Search your soul but listen to your heart. Did u see the digital painting I did some time back on u. I got some comments on my blog about it but I still haven't finished it because of life and family and my own pursuit of happiness.

    Be good and stay strong sister. Wow you got to meet George Benson...good deal man.

     
  • At 3/11/2007 6:28 PM, Anonymous bunny said…

    So sorry for your loss Sangin' and I'm glad you are back. It's awesome that you actually took the time for soul searching, hell that requires total "me" time.

    But um how you gon' forget your mama's number??? I'd be cryin' too about that one lol!

    George Benson lookin' good as ever too!

     
  • At 3/11/2007 6:42 PM, Blogger Jamaal said…

    it's good to see that you're still gonna blog.....blogging can be inspirational to others literally thousands of miles away....keep doing your thing

     
  • At 3/11/2007 7:55 PM, Blogger CreoleInDC said…

    But you didn't lose ya flava Princess. Glad you're voice is back.

    Smooches!

     
  • At 3/12/2007 12:32 AM, Blogger souffle said…

    oh you poe baby... sorry bout your down times, been 'ere and done it too... decided to go on a blog lurking gig as wel... so much to say toolittle time or just plain lazy sometimes :) good to see you back on the up and up again chica! *hugs*

     
  • At 3/12/2007 6:35 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hello Ms. Diva, I don't blog (just journal), but I enjoy reading blogs and yours in particular is one of my favorites! I love living life "vicariously" through your life - it seems so glam & exciting! I appreciate your sharing your photos of all the talents you are blessed to work with! Sorry for your loss & your feeling down - I'm glad you didn't decide to shut down. Keep your head & up; take care & God Bless! ~ TK in Ohio.

     
  • At 3/12/2007 10:49 AM, Blogger Nikki said…

    Whoa, ol' George Benson is lookin' a little long in the tooth. Still love him, though.

     
  • At 3/12/2007 10:52 AM, Anonymous Shannon Munford said…

    Diva...the invitation still stands. When I read your blog I think my church would be a really good fit for you. Our pastor is taking 10 people from the choir and band to Japan again to train some locals. I'd love you to come vist before they leave town.

    Address is

    Crusade Christian Faith Center
    801 S. La Brea
    Inglewood Ca 90301
    310-995-1202

    Sunday Service 10:30

    see ya.

     
  • At 3/12/2007 1:58 PM, Blogger African girl, American world said…

    RIP to you friend ((HUGS)))
    I understand about the phone...I don't know a lot of numbers by heart that are important.
    Glad things are looking up!

     
  • At 3/12/2007 6:26 PM, Blogger Darbs said…

    Whew...I was a bit nervous for a minute. I had gotten off the beaten blog path for a minute as well and came back to find a couple members of my blog fam are g-o-n-e. I don't think I could bear to lose yet another member!

    I'm so glad that "mah sista" decided to hand in there!

    Isn't the Journey somthing? Full of living, loving, losing and learning...

    Blessings!

     
  • At 3/12/2007 7:42 PM, Blogger Will said…

    Welcome back. Glad you're not going anywhere for a while. Can't see you, so I'm glad I'll be able to read you. :)

     
  • At 3/12/2007 10:43 PM, Blogger DivineLavender said…

    Hey Sweetie Pie,

    Glad you aren't leaving us....You can lurk at my place anytime!

     
  • At 3/13/2007 9:15 AM, Blogger TTD said…

    so did u memorize ur momma's phone number yet? :-)

    glad u didnt quit.. i was getting worried about u...

     
  • At 3/14/2007 7:33 AM, Blogger Brea said…

    Take your time, I totally understand. I'm sorry for your losses and hardships but I'm thankful that you are smart enough to use them in a positive way. Looking forward to the update.

     
  • At 3/14/2007 9:43 AM, Blogger sweetie kia said…

    Sangin,
    Everybody needs to take time to reflect and soul search once in a while. When we lose someone that we care about, it opens our eyes to the fragility of life. You shared significant moments of your life with Doug in your travels and so he was really more like family. Losing family hits harder than anything else. To lose someone that close to you will always make you look inside to question if you are making the most out of life, realizing the true call on your life and making sure the lives you touch have an awareness and opportunity to know the truth about what really happens when they leave this earth. The decisions made on earth determine our eternity and since tomorrow isn't promised, then by all means go ahead and do your soul searchin. It is sooo healing and cleansing for you to know that you are making positive decisions in a positive direction toward your purpose. You know that I always have your back and that I am always cheering you on and praying for you. Hooray for the Sangin Diva....go girl...go. (cheering through megaphone & shaking pom poms) (Dionne singing in the background) THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR........

     
  • At 3/15/2007 9:26 AM, Blogger Miz JJ said…

    I am glad you are not shutting down your blog. I am sorry to hear about your friend.

     
  • At 3/15/2007 3:34 PM, Blogger P said…

    Always good to know the diva is back in full effect and with the help of the great almighty to boot.

    And gurl, losing that cell phone is like losing your purse.

    I'm feeling ya.

    You wanna tell us about the purse?

     
  • At 3/16/2007 2:52 PM, Blogger bRandy said…

    glad you're still here...would have missed ya...already did in fact. :o) so you told us how you WERE doing...how you doing now?

     
  • At 3/16/2007 6:16 PM, Blogger TDJ said…

    Hi Sangin! I lurk and don't post much, but I love your blog. I hope you don't quit. Happy you are able to speak and sing again. :)

     
  • At 3/17/2007 2:58 AM, Blogger Lunatic ILL said…

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  • At 3/17/2007 2:59 AM, Blogger Lunatic ILL said…

    You Can't quit... We Need People Like You... We Need People Like You So We Can point Our Fingers And Say... That's The Good Girl...

    Ha Ha!!! Whattup, Ma? Holla At The Clown...

     
  • At 3/17/2007 11:31 PM, Blogger Miss Ahmad said…

    did you tell em about your new fancy phone?

    i loves you girl, do your soul searching and take inventory of your life because it's big and beautiful, you are a shining light in this world and i'm one friend that you ain't losing cuz i'll stalk your ass:-)

    book club soon!!

     
  • At 3/19/2007 7:38 AM, Blogger SomeOne said…

    I hate when I loose my phone. totally messes up my day. I don't remember anyone's number by heart anymore my dangum self. Now I have all my numbers on teh computer, so when I loose my phone I'm not so lost. Waiting for ppl to call me to get there number again. glad you decided to stick around. :)

     
  • At 3/19/2007 11:09 AM, Blogger 1969 said…

    There seems to be a whole lot of blog soul searching going on. Glad you are sticking around. You were missed.

     
  • At 3/19/2007 2:49 PM, Blogger Bklyn Diva said…

    sorry for your loss but sister I KNOW what you mean.. You DEFINITELY have to do a lot of SOUL SEARCHING.. things you share, folks enter into your lives and their spirits are NOT MEANT to dwell with yours.. even if it is on the internet.. Just so much..

    I love ya sis.. and miss ya.. Can't wait for you to be in DC again or hell when you going to an exotic island for some type of show.. gimme a heads up.. I might have to put it in my plan!!!-

     
  • At 3/19/2007 10:22 PM, Anonymous Nichelle said…

    Awww - I'm so late!

    I'm sorry to hear about your friend. And I'm glad that you got your voice back right away.

    Welcome back!

     
  • At 3/20/2007 7:00 AM, Anonymous maria$exy said…

    I am soooo glad you are back to blogging!

     
  • At 3/20/2007 1:52 PM, Blogger Honey-Libra said…

    YEA!!! Glad that you fought through all that and came back to the blog world. I love how your pics always go with what you say they make me laugh and smile LOL

     
  • At 3/20/2007 9:15 PM, Blogger Epsilonicus said…

    I am definitely happy that you did not quit blogging. I love when you update.

     
  • At 3/21/2007 10:27 AM, Blogger fallen angel said…

    seems like 2007 has a lot of us soul searching. i think that ultimately, that's the only way to get back to the basics: the roots of ourselves...

     
  • At 3/22/2007 5:28 AM, Blogger Lyrically speaking said…

    First I must say sorry for your loss, I was just passing by and couldn't help but read, i'm glad you're blogging again. It is so therapeutic and I'm sure you felt better afterwards. George Benson is the man, he still looks so good and right next to you the picture shines brighter :)

     
  • At 5/03/2007 10:55 AM, Blogger urban butterfly said…

    My condolencenses on the loss of your friend! I know that kinda pain. I hope you're coping and coming to terms. Much love and peace to you, always!

     
  • At 11/24/2009 8:40 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hey girl this is somemeofbeauty. I was just reading my old blog and cracking up!!!! at your comment. Hope youre doing well!

     

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